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This is my original post from three years ago! I can’t believe it’s been that long since I’ve blogged. Well…I guess I was in a pregnancy haze for awhile.
Back to it-
I am no extraordinary person; mother of three, wife of another, sister, daughter, a bit obsessive over cleaning, love a good book and the ever elusive nap. As far as testimonies go, I have one. But it may seem to camouflage itself right alongside a typical, raised in the church and fell away story. I was raised in the church, Church of Christ to be exact. I was a summer camp youth counselor and by most standards a “pretty good girl”. Except i had no idea who Jesus was, what he was about, what he could do; I was content in the knowledge that I was going to heaven simply because I was baptized. I was lost. I lived my life to the fullest as some would say in college, complete with nights of unconsciousness and other bleeps of memories I try not to remember. I know we all have those. Well most. Those dark spots of memory that creep to the surface when we are still. Usually those memories are what’s driving the numbing and forgetting process.
I carried on my double life for sometime, naming the name Christ but not really knowing him. Then, I fell in love. Real love. I married a musician. Lucky for me, he knew his calling (the very thing God created us to do with our time here) was to be a worship pastor. What’s worship anyway? I was raised in a church with no instruments. I was not ready for what my new love was going to show me. We went to his home church, and I thought to myself, these people are crazy! Dancing and singing and carrying on! Worship. But the music, the lyrics, they soaked in my fake christian skin and moved inside me. Music has always had a way to change me. I had no idea how much change was coming.
If you have read this far, I hope you will be moved by the songs I am going to post. My husband is a song writer and when writing a song, he usually writes the melody first. As for me, I am a lyric girl. I’m looking for a song’s words to relate to me, to map out exactly how I am feeling and then combined with the melody can do damage. And when I mean damage, I mean it makes you want to be different. Every song I choose has personally ministered to me or challenged me. I can’t get enough.
I decided to stop playing the Christian pretend game because of a song. I will feature it one week, but the song broke me apart. I sobbed for hours. The amazing thing though, God felt real. Not some far off, made up thing. The song lodged itself into who I am. And who I want to become. Not afraid to be surrendered to the Creator Of the Universe. Not afraid of anything. It is the toughest and most rewarding decision I have ever made.
But you have to choose. Choose to Come Away. Choose to step out of everything comfortable for a new life. A different life. I said before and will continue to say this- it’s not easy. It requires a mighty heart and even bigger will to change. But you can. We weren’t made to live in oppression, depression, or any other i.o.n. word you can think of. And when it get’s too much- put on the song that reminds you it’s possible.
God is knocking. It’s not too late. It’s never too late. One lyric changed my life.
JESUS CULTURE-COME AWAY
Come away with me, come away with me
It’s never too late
It’s not too late
It’s not too late for you
And I have a plan for you
I have a plan for you
It’s gonna be wild
It’s gonna be great
It’s gonna be full of me
So open up your heart and let me in.
What’s this stuff all about?
Josh leads worship at River of Life in Cedar Rapids. We have a Sunday morning service if you are wanting to check us out 10:00 am. Don’t worry, there is no funny stuff. Just Jesus.
Jesus Culture is one of our favorite worship bands. They are amazing at finding the connection with the Holy Spirit (your spiritual connection – one on one channel and relationship with God. Believe me it is real, hard to grasp at first, but real) through a song. If you want more of their stuff, you can youtube their videos, or the website is www.jesusculture.com.
Something to consider-
If you have taken the time to read this far maybe it’s not because your bored. You sat down, turned on the computer, listened to the song, read the blog. Took time out of your day. John 6:44 says “For no one can come to me (Jesus)unless the Father (God) who sent me (Jesus) draws them (That’s US!) to me, and at the last day I will raise them up.” I want you to catch something here…God draws his children to Jesus, TO HIM. It is by no mistake you are reading this. Curosity maybe. But I hope you can feel him drawing you in.