I’m tired of telling you, you have me
When I know you really don’t
I’m tired of telling you I’ll follow
When I know I really won’t.
Hands down the song on the blog today is one of my favorite gut punches to date. The first time I heard this song Josh was singing it in his parents basement. Back then I thought Josh wrote every song he sang, so I stood and listened, amazed at the honesty of the lyrics. The lyrics hurt. They address the hypocrisy in our hearts, my heart, in relationship with man or God.
Man this is a good song.
I asked David to write for onelyric, and about this song, because he had the opportunity to travel AND INTERNED with the artist who pinned the words. Jason Upton.
David is super cool, super chill, super talented, AND full of integrity. I pray the three minions I am raising will show as much passion and integrity as young men that David walks in. It’s foreign in young men today, and even more refreshing when found to be authentic. Enjoy.
“Tell me how you really feel.”
That line is what my friend Jason heard right before he wrote his song In the Silence. I remember the first time I heard In the Silence. I could hardly believe it… it seemed too.. real.
The lyrics hit home, and implied, that God would rather I be truthful in my emotions with him then to give him dishonest praise & empty words.
Walter Brueggemann, an author and theologian says it like this: “Sometimes our praise can actually be a manifestation of our doubt!” Wow!
God is so incredibly relational that He even understands our anger. He receives our frustration. He comprehends our groans and cries. He sees them as language; He sees them as a path to relationship.
A real relationship… I’m talking like real-deal relationships. They will always involve a wide range of emotions. Think about those you are closest to. You have probably laughed AND cried… maybe you’ve wanted to punch them right in the nose or other times needed their embrace. This is what Jesus wants. He wants us – our baggage, our laughter and our tears. Otherwise, it wouldn’t be an authentic relationship.
For me, this is incredibly encouraging.
If we would have the patience and the courage to be real with Jesus and maybe even give Him the time to respond to us, we might be able to know a little more about what this life is all about.
No longer is it acceptable to live life without relationship, heavenly or earthly. We have a Father in heaven who desperately wants relationship with us and those on earth who care about us also. Let’s be truthful! Let’s be honest! Let’s be vulnerable! We might actually get somewhere… somehow!
The song for this post is: “In the Silence” by Jason Upton. This is my life song… I hope it blesses you.
~ In the Silence ~ Jason Upton ~ Live
Tired of telling you, you have me
When I know you really don’t
Tired of telling you I’ll follow
When I know I really won’t
Cause I’d rather stand here speechless
With no great words to say
If my silence is more truthful
And my ears can hear how to walk in your way
In the silence
You are speaking
In the quiet I can feel the fire
And it’s burning, burning deeply
Burning all that it is that you desire to be silent, in me
Oh Jesus can you hear me?
My soul is screaming out
And my broken will cries teach me
What your Kingdom’s all about
Unite my heart to fear you,
To fear your holy name
And create a life of worship
In the spirit and truth of your loving ways
Thank you for reading – You’re not alone. Jesus is here!
P.s. Just a few hours after I wrote this post, it was announced that legendary actor/comedian Robin Williams passed away after committing suicide. He struggled with depression. This has become far too common. If you have ever struggled with depression or are struggling with it right now… Please know 2 things: Jesus is with you and He desires to set you free so you can be all you were made to be AND… There are people who can help. Please ask for help! Your life is worth living!!
Here’s more about David!
David is 22, living in Cedar Rapids, IA. As a Jesus-following musician, David has traveled to 7 different countries with Jason Upton and also with White Ribbon Day sharing the love & gospel of Jesus Christ. He has a MUCH better half in Tristen Lumbard! They have been together for 3.5 years with many more to come! David loves working with church musicians… not so much on playing the right notes but understanding that God is after their heart first! He also has never been known to turn down a Chick-fil-A sandwich.
More of David’s writings are available here: www.davidmcgarvey.wordpress.com
He writes about a living Jesus who is calling us to live an interactive life with Him. He is always speaking. Are we listening?
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